So, you're going to have a baby...

So, about 3 months ago the darndest thing happened to me. I missed my period. Typically, I could set my watch by my period. It's like your super dependable-yet trainwreck of a friend who never shows up early or late, is always right on time and makes you feel like hell for a few days. Not that month though. Nope, took December off... then January... and February...

I had an appointment with my acupuncturist that day and upon feeling the pulses in my wrist she said, "Hmmmm... your middle pulses are strong, usually that means there's a baby." FREAKY.

I have to admit, the moment I missed it, I knew. This was no glitch in the Matrix. Crazy cell division had begun and there was no going back from there. I waited a couple days post missing my period and peed on a fancy stick that magically tells you what you'll be doing for the next 18+ years of your life. That little wand holds a LOT of power.

Not the most romantic, but I called my husband into the bathroom immediately to show him. I was shaking and excited, he was excited too.

Just to get up to speed, the last few months have sort of been a roller coaster. Holy crap hormones are CRAZY. All this time I thought I was captain of this ship. I thought I was calling the shots. NOPE. There would be times when my mouth would open and words start pouring out and my mind, quietly, thought to myself, "What the hell is happening right now? What are you saying? You sound like a crazy person. Stop crying! You're stronger than that." I think yesterday I had my first positive mood swing. I went from being annoyed as all get out, to being really happy and I don't know why. I'm pretty sure those little bastards of hormones were pushing some buttons or whatever and accidentally flipped on the "happy" switch. Finally! A good swing! My poor husband. I can't tell you people how many times he's given me that look like "I don't know what you want me to do right now." He's really gone out of his way a number of times to make me as happy as possible. I am so grateful.

Our latest development in the baby saga is we had our first ultrasound last Tuesday. It was SO cool to watch it move around! It was so active!!! I was in awe seeing it's little skeleton moving about, and seeing it look straight on with a skeletal smile :) Watching the blood flow and it's little heart beat was probably the coolest thing so far. The girls at work call it my little sea monkey. My husband has taken to calling it "Predator" I like to think of it as my little monster. (hopefully it's not born with a tail though)

Can you believe that hand?! I kept asking questions like, "Why is the brain so small and not taking up the entire cavity?" My husband's response? "It's definitely a Webb, big head, little brain." The tech, "because it's still growing." Ok, so it's normal. (sigh of relief) Is it sucking it's thumb?! apparently it can't suck yet at 12 weeks, but boy is it trying. I have never been so in awe, so proud, and so in love for anything else in my life. I still can't believe how amazing the human body is. Thankfully, it's smarter than I am and I feel good that it can do it's thing on auto pilot. All I have to do is eat healthy, exercise and keep whispering sweet nothings to this little parasite. <3